I am a Colored Girl
I am a colored girl. I am a colored girl who has considered
suicide when my life seemed cloudy and gray.
I am a colored girl who has been raped more times than any woman should,
given her body and her love to undeserving men, and who has been a mother to an
unborn baby whose life I chose to terminate.
I am a colored girl who has had to suppress, deny, and internalize my
pain because I’ve been told that I don’t have a right to express my angst, that
to be a good colored gal is not to be uppity but rather to be a sassy, one-dimensional
caricature. I am a brown woman who has
been blue in a white world that is responsible for spilling the red blood of my
black ancestors.
Ultimately, however, this little
missive isn’t about me, it’s about Tyler Perry’s
For Colored Girls and
its impact and impression on the Black community.
The fact that the movie speaks to me, to my
artistic spirit, to my personal struggles and survival as a Black woman beyond
the offensive and incessant deluge of Basketball/Rapper/Housewives
gold-digging, materialistic, shallow depictions that flood the media is almost
irrelevant.
I get that most Black women
are entertained by their own objectification, that the more degrading the image,
the higher the ratings.
What shocks me
most is that I am almost singular in my praise of the movie among my
peers.
Of all of my feminist,
womanist,
academic, like-minded friends, I stand essentially alone as a fan of the movie,
its message, and its execution.
I went to the movie on its
opening night with a sweet gentleman who had more baby momma’s than can
literally be counted on two hands. The
theater was packed to capacity with loyal Madea fans who really don’t give a
damn if their entertainment is buffoonery or comes at the cost of their
degradation. They laughed at
inappropriate places and yelled homophobic taunts at the screen as if the
actors could actually hear them. When I
cried, my companion held my head to his shoulder to comfort me and whispered to
me that everything was going to be okay.
As we all filed out of the packed auditorium, I heard the same sentiment
echoed throughout the halls, “Yo, that movie was deep.”
It wasn’t until I sought solace
and comfort among my contemporaries that I found this, what I can only call
bizarre critique of the film.
I fully
anticipated that Black men would hate the film, that was no shock.
Any discussion of Black men that doesn’t proclaim
them flawless and unfairly maligned is going to be met with a unanimous
proclamation of, “Male Basher!”
I never
once thought white people would get it, the cadence and rhythm, the subject
matter is truly beyond the scope of what they deem to be acceptable Black entertainment.
Hollywood only loves Black movies when we are
criminal, degenerate, or
ghetto
so I knew not to expect praise from
The
Academy.
It was only when I turned
to the women who I thought would see the beauty and innovation of the project
that I felt alone.
It seemed to me that
almost every woman I thought would love it, said she hated it or wasn’t moved
by it.
It was from my inner circle that
I heard the critiques that it was nothing more than of unwarranted male
bashing, that it was simply another typical
Tyler
Perry flick with no substance, that it was . . . too poetic.
The very same women who lament almost daily
that there are no stories that tell our tales are the women who said that they couldn’t
stand the movie.
I heard everything from
contrived critiques that Perry only made the movie to hide his sexuality to he
didn’t stay true to the original author’s vision.
One has to ask themselves exactly how
hypercritical one must be not to take note of the fact that there were good
black men in the movie, that the poetry remained essentially in tact, and that
there was a beautiful story woven around
Ntozake Shange’s words that had
absolutely nothing to do with Mr. Perry’s personal life but the original
play.
I am not a Tyler Perry Fan.
My critiques of his movies falls more along
the lines of
Spike
Lee’s assessment than those who have a collection of bootleg Madea DVDs
they’ve purchased before the movies even come out.
That didn’t prevent me however, from going to
the movie with an open mind and seeing the beauty, artistry, and genius of this
film.
From the way it was directed, filmed,
the exquisite way the stories were interwoven and interpreted, to the fact that
it wasn’t watered down but that Perry maintained the integrity of the poetry,
For Colored Girls was nothing less than brilliant.
Young and old, rich and not so rich, the
movie gave voice to the myriad of women who have been socialized in a society
that was not created for them.
It’s almost as if the movie’s
harshest critics were the same women who have dedicated their lives to fighting
for our stories to be told, but when they actually saw their stories, with all
their blemishes, they didn’t like what saw; they saw something ugly and it
looked a little too close to what was reflected in their mirror. In a day and age when what passes for
artistry in the African American community are rap songs with the rhyming skill
of a third grader, unscripted “reality” shows that have nothing whatsoever to
do with any sort of reality, and plays with the exact same
you-don’t-need-a-man-you-need-Jesus storyline rehashed time and time again,
this jewel, this rare gem was cerebral, earthy, and genuine. It’s a very sad commentary that the people
who appreciated the movie the most probably have no clue what Sister Shange was
attempting to do with her seminal choreopoem. She, like Perry, wasn’t trying to
bash men or put out a work that was too sophisticated for the average Black
person to grasp, she was telling the tales of colored girls who have considered
suicide when the rainbow is enuf . . . like me.
Scottie Lowe copyright 2011
