I now know on an intrinsic, or at
least I’m trying to accept on some level, that it’s not possible for me to get
what I want. I’m a pawn in a fucked up,
racist game, not a special pawn, just a piece on the board. They can’t stop me from dreaming though. I know I’m an extraordinary Domme and I deserve
someone compatible with me who appreciates and values all that I bring to the
table. I’m holding out hope for the
great Black reset and a new consciousness however manipulated by the powers
that be my perspective on that may be.
If BDSM still exists in my new reality, I want a submissive of my own,
long-term, who fits me perfectly.
My ideal submissive is
approximately 55 years old. I’m not
interested in anyone significantly younger than that and for me to consider
anyone in their late 40s they would have to not only meet but far exceed every
other criteria. I need him to be single
or divorced. He should be 6’ tall and
I’ll get him in shape physically if he’s not already. He should be attractive. So, it’s a little slippery slope to say I
want a white submissive to be attractive because, first and foremost,
attraction is subjective. I am not generally
attracted to white men so it’s sort of disingenuous and hypocritical for me to
say that I want one who is attractive. I
need someone who is attractive because I need him to represent me. I’m elegant, sophisticated, I command
attention wherever I go and I need someone who can withstand that sort of
scrutiny. His primary role will be to
attend to Black men and I don’t want to offer up someone who immediately turns
them off with his appearance. I’m not
averse to minor plastic surgery for teeth, dermatologists, spa treatments, a
true makeover but nothing major. If
Black men look at him and they aren’t aroused, if they can’t see someone worth
fucking, then he is of no use to me.
He will NOT be regularly dressing
as a woman, his primary role will not be that of a sissy faggot
crossdresser; he will dress and present
as a man the vast majority of the time.
I’ll be responsible for picking his wardrobe for his dates with black
men and he will be dressed according to my tastes and that includes suits,
expensive, tailored suits and far more than casual khakis and golf shirts. I will train him to crossdress and be
appealing as a man who presents as female for the occasions that is requested
of him but his default mode will be a white man who satisfies, pleasures,
caters to, and submits to Black men.
He will be my intellectual equal;
we will be able to enjoy cocktails and discuss many subjects for hours. That
presents a unique problem in that anyone who is my intellectual equal holds an
advanced degree and I am not interested in anyone whose loyalties lie elsewhere
or who is obligated to lie to me. No civil servants, no military personnel , no
jet-setting rich playboys who inherited wealth. Ayahuasca, DMT, acid are fine,
but if I get to pick and choose my perfect sub, I would say he should smoke
weed, he is open to plant medicine and psychedelics in moderation, but he stays
far away from chemical drugs. So, if I
get to create my dream submissive, he is someone who was raised in a family that
valued education but placed more value in a person’s character, their intrinsic
value, not their salary or title. I
would love it if he dropped out of college because he was too liberal and
thought outside the box and has remained somewhat of a loner . . . like me. I know!
That limits my potential submissive pool to a needle in an infinite
universe of haystacks. I said it would be virtually impossible for me to find
what I’m looking for in a white man but this is my dream list so I’m putting
everything I want on it.
I’m unwilling to consider taking
the oath myself or drinking the juice or whatever you people do for a multitude
of reasons at this stage in my . . . whatever this is . . . reality? I’m not going to say that I won’t ever but
with my convictions and my perspectives, I would feel like a traitor at this
stage in my life, it would be like saying that I’m better than the people who I’m
striving to lift up plus I’m a pathological truther so it’s not a good fit for
me anyway.
He will undoubtedly be
progressive politically and he will be both, artistic, talented, and creative,
as they mean distinctly different things.
My perfect submissive will be a jazz enthusiast and being bilingual is a
plus. I will be able to go to jazz
festivals and concerts with him without being ashamed or embarrassed. He will certainly get extra bonus points if
he likes neo soul and rare grooves, salsa, etc., but it’s not a requirement
whatsoever. I need him to be a
feminist. I need him to be comfortable
with his bisexuality. I need him to be respectful
of everyone’s differences and challenges.
Europeans and white men raised
outside of the US move to the head of the line please as I am going to imagine
that re-training individuals not born into the racist hellhole that is
AmeriKKKa will be easier. I will not debate
my submissive about race so she should come to the table as anti-racist as
possible and I will work with him to train him to navigate the world as my
submissive, and that means he will understand and be as articulate about race
and racism as I am. My plan to divest
him of racism is intense and no one has ever attempted anything like it. He will be subjected to sexual,
psychological, and cultural instruction from a team of Black men and women who
will incorporate pleasure and pain as incentives to learn how to be
antiracist.
He will be mine exclusively and
we will see each other three or four times a year. The first year of training
will be intense and extensive. I’m going
to reprogram and completely break him down and then recreate him in my
image: culturally, mentally,
emotionally, socially, and sexually. I intend for our relationship to span years,
my prayer is that I will only have one submissive for the rest of my life so we
will travel together and be comfortable in each other’s presence. I will genuinely like him, like our time
together as he will be courteous and polite in public and insatiable and
ravenous behind closed doors. His tastes
will be similar to mine in that he will appreciate the finer things in life but
he will not be too good to eat at Applebee’s nor will he think he’s too good to
volunteer to work in the hood to do the real work of lifting people’s
consciousness out of the ghetto.
He should be financially secure
and generous but I’m not looking for a sugar daddy. I abhor the concept of blackmail. If someone feels they need to be forced to
worship and adore me because they’re afraid I will destroy their life, move on,
I’m not cut out for them. I want someone
who recognizes me for the unique entity that I am and who feels privileged to
belong to me and will show me with signs of his appreciation and love. There is no dollar amount required but there
is also the acknowledgement that I’m exceptional and you can not expect to
belong to me for free.
Ideally, I would love to find
someone who would finance the creation of some of my cutting-edge interracial
erotic content without the expectation of a ROI but rather just as a testament
to his devotion to me. I understand my
worth. I know what an honor and
privilege it will be to say that you belong to me. Investing money in creating groundbreaking,
breathtaking, controversial, fucking sexy ass interracial erotica seems, to me,
like it would be an honor. I’m not white
and I don’t have the same relationship with money as white men do, I don’t base
my self worth on my bank account and white men do. White men, who monetize and capitalize off of
AIR, they think they have rights to make money off of air, who think nothing is
wrong with stealing land and then profiting from it, tend to expect domination
for free as, if it’s an honor for me to dominate them. I don’t belong to that school of
thought. I’m not looking for material
possessions, I could care less about purses or red bottom shoes. I want community gardens in Black
neighborhoods. Finance that and get the
keys to my heart. I want experiences and
memories, not material things. More than
anything, I want a submissive who feels honored to spoil me and does so because
he truly loves me.
Eventually, my ideal submissive
will get access to me sexually. That
means, that one day, after he has proven himself, proven his loyalty and
trustworthiness, after I’ve transformed him into the submissive of my dreams, he
will have access to licking m pussy, tonguing my ass, to sucking my tits like a
baby in my arms. That is not something
any white submissive has ever earned but I’m not looking for someone
average. It’s not something that will
happen any time soon but he’s not average and he is going to get exceptional
benefits if he belongs to me.
In terms of things that will be
off limits for him . . . My philosophy is simple, it has not and will not
change. If he doesn’t want to do
something, he will not have to do it. Ever. If he says no, stop, anything even
remotely close to taking his consent away, things come to a halt immediately. I’m not here to force him to do something he
doesn’t want to do or to facilitate his rape or anything of the sort. It is my jog as a Domme to create a space for
you where you can be uninhibited and insatiable, where you crave stimulation
like a junkie. I
I identify as a veraciphile, a
word I created that means I’m aroused by the intimacy of sharing one’s most
darkest secrets, however evil they might be.
A great many white men can’t understand that my arousal is from being
the source of intimacy in your life, the person with whom you can share
anything, any deeply depraved and sick secret.
White men almost always assume that means that I want them to do deeply
depraved and sick acts for me, to arouse me.
I’m repulsed by the deeply depraved and sick acts that white men confess
to me, I’m intensely aroused by them being forthcoming, sharing, opening up,
and being honest with me. My dream
submissive will understand that, he will NOT be deeply depraved in fact. He’s not a psychopath hiding in plain site,
he’s someone with insatiable passions who desires to unleash them in private
with select partners whom I choose and who wants to make me proud. I will train
him in the things that arouse me and they will be options on the ala carte menu
when he offers his services to Black men. In fact, he’s not driven by his
sexual lusts whatsoever. I know,
impossible to find in a white man. But I
can dream.
Now that I’m thinking about it, I
may want two submissives. One will be my
equal, my perfect pet and another will be my toy to abuse and destroy, one who
will be nastier and filthier who only performs for me when I need someone
disgusting. I would have a different relationship
with him. Finding that submissive is not
a priority for me. I’m sure I could
create him if I took the time to go through all the offers I get currently but he’s
almost a backup in my mind. My priority
would be to find the white submissive created for me.
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